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Slip up

Put down the blade and swore inside my heart,
I will Never do it again,
Two days has gone, everything seems fine,
i wonder if this was that easy why haven't i quit before The third has begun and so the urges to bleed more and more
I pick it up again, hesitation attacks me, put it down you swore I pray for god i lack strenght, help me to stand up again,
Bones are aching, every cell begins to drown in pain,
I need somebody beside me, may be i'll be out of it again Somebody heal me , pull me, make me feel i can fight,
No one seems to co

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hurt and alone
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HiddenPain inside, I'm really hurt. Cuts hidden under my shirt. Feelings hidden on the inside. Truth was hidden, all those times I lied. Face hidden behind my frown. You can't tell, I'm feeling down. Hidden
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Hating myslef is a crimeI'm at the end. There isn't much more I can take. Everything is only getting worse. I really need a break. Day in and day out, Nothing is what I do. My life is so confusing. Why do I feel like I do? I'm by myself, Dreading each and every day, With nobody to talk to, Just hoping things will be okay. I've created some sore of prison, Where hating myself is the crime. Someday maybe things will change? I guess I will know in time. Nobody understands me, Or knows what I'm going through. Keeping a smile on my face, Acting happy with wha Hating myslef is a crime
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EmptyInsecurites flood my mind Drowning out the cries of happiness I've found Why? I have what I want I have what I need Why is this not enough? I want to cut still Even deeper than before Longer gashes down my arms Down to the bone Scars like hills on my pale skin A red deeper than crimson Flowing down the length of my arm Dripping off my fingertips I have the knives I have the blades I have the time I have the room If not then I will retrace old memories with new ones This is what I want I don't know why I don't Don Empty
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Interests: Music Rock o metal and reading o writing
Favourite movie: 28 days anything for sandra bullock
Favourite band or musician: slipknot,linkinpark,evanescence,marylin manson ,3 days grace ,3 doors down , metallica sometimes ...
Favourite genre of music: Rock and metal all kinds
Personal Quote: Live to the fulliest or die to the fulliest

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~xo-twilight Oct 15, 2008, 6:18:19 AM

thanks for the fav

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These violent delights have violent ends
And in their triumph die, like fire and powder,
Which, as they kiss, consume.
--Romeo and Juliet, Act II, Scene VI

~jggy Sep 17, 2008, 6:08:40 AM

I'm very late but thanks for the

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manipulate the reality

~Gamergirl7 Sep 5, 2008, 9:05:54 AM

Thanks for the fav!!

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"Vision without action is merely a dream. Action without vision just passes the time. Vision with action can change the world."

~fat-bob Aug 20, 2008, 8:10:46 PM

danke!

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The smell of meat and blood clouds up the condo until I don't notice it any more. And later my macabre joy sours and I'm weeping for myself, unable to find any solace in any of this, crying out, sobbing, "I just want to be loved."